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2010-09-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

What do I speak like things are only known to me?
Why is it that I cannot focus my eyes?
Why is it that I cannot concentrate on a conversation but manage to observe every single detail?
I find myself living in a delusional world.

2010-09-12T15:35:00.000-07:00

The night sky feels as though it has never been darker
With the fleeting hope of vengeance compelling me
I will attempt to recollect myself and resume my chase
But what is it that I'm chasing, am I really chasing anything at all?
Or am I simply drowning myself in revenge to avoid the horrifying truth?

I've lost the only thing that made me feel truly alive
Are my hands responsible, are his? Who was he?
Who was the madman that stood before me tonight?
I swear I've seen his face before
I know I've seen his face before

2010-09-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

Surrender to nothing,
or give up what ive...

2010-08-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I love how heartaches succumb
thats always better than denial
and suggestive 'love' sounds.

2010-06-16T14:37:00.001-07:00

Life's vicious cycle

2010-06-15T07:46:00.001-07:00

i'm your karma.

2010-06-09T10:44:00.001-07:00

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?

2010-06-04T09:48:00.001-07:00

Experience is such a comforting term for failure.

2010-05-21T04:55:00.001-07:00

Life's too short to be anybody else.

2010-05-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

I've lost the only thing that made me feel truly alive.
Are my hands responsible, are his? Who was he?
Who was the madman that stood before me tonight?
I swear I've seen his face before,
I know I've seen his face before.

2010-01-31T08:20:00.001-08:00

Reality? What goes down must come up!

2010-01-28T12:39:00.001-08:00

Reality?
People ditch you when you're down.

Reality?
When you're at your peak, they're here.

Reality?
People can come up with a thousand excuses.

Reality?
We all don't live in reality.

2010-01-12T09:19:00.000-08:00

Can I stop worrying?

2010-01-04T18:52:00.001-08:00

Death is a promise,
your life is a fucking lie.

2010-01-02T21:08:00.000-08:00

Trust, friendship..

something fragile as fuck.

2009-12-19T12:24:00.000-08:00

I need a listening ear.
Is it my beer?

2009-12-06T19:44:00.001-08:00

Sorry to say,
we're not.

2009-12-05T13:02:00.000-08:00

having fun together doesnt mean desire for a relationship hun.

2009-12-02T17:23:00.000-08:00

Hey cheerful face.

2009-11-18T14:26:00.001-08:00

I'm still drinking Anchor with you in my mind

2009-11-11T23:19:00.000-08:00

I don't like brainless people.. they simply think with their ass.

2009-11-08T22:52:00.000-08:00

How bitter a thing it is to look into happiness through another man's eyes.

2009-10-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

Love is just an adjective.

2009-09-20T15:09:00.000-07:00

is there a beauty in...
loving somebody too much?

2009-09-14T10:00:00.001-07:00

i miss the days..

2009-08-29T13:49:00.000-07:00

See this man beneath his skin.

2009-08-23T00:15:00.000-07:00

I'm giving you up.

2009-07-26T20:44:00.001-07:00

Fill my lungs with air; give me another day to make my dreams come true.
Now watch as my wildest dreams come true,
not one of them involving you!

2009-07-22T18:02:00.000-07:00

Falling for words-
falling forwards.

Fashion is such an addiction.
It manufactures desire and need.
With all my feelings now I hope I wouldn't drift far from my Rolex dream.
Rolex by the end of 2010...
I like my life with a goal now.
I'm sorry but to have you is impractical.

2009-07-12T15:37:00.000-07:00

I have my ambitions,
I know what I want.
I have my ways to get there,
and how to become the one.

If leaving you was an option,
if only it was one.
I know I have to move on,
I'm sorry of what I can't.

I'm moving on now,
I'm leaving you behind.
I'll go too high up,
to come back to the ground.

When I reach the sky,
I'll guide you by my side.
I'll give you a hand,
and show you that you can.

Let me change the world
for you, my only dear.

2009-07-06T09:54:00.000-07:00

I dont like proud people who dont take opinions.
go fuck yourselves.

2009-07-04T12:25:00.000-07:00

I know...
i know...
because how you were feeling
is just what im feeling
for the past 2 years...

2009-06-27T15:10:00.000-07:00

I'll never fall down the same place I fell...

2009-06-22T22:21:00.000-07:00

Why do people think about doing so many things...
... when they don't get down to doing it?

2009-06-22T10:18:00.000-07:00

My envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars,
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine..

2009-06-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

This guy in the mirror,
I wonder who he is?
Sometimes I think I know him,
sometimes I wish I did.
There is a story in his eyes,
lullabies and goodbye.
Look past his broken eyes,
a disguise no one recognise.

2009-06-17T13:16:00.000-07:00

My boys train real hard for competition,
I am glad they did.
Jiayou!
'Pain is just weakness leaving the body'
As much as you both are perservering,
we are, on the other side, too.
We don't want anything bad to happen
but we have to be strict
some things are forced,
idk why,
Really.
You see improvements ?
Those are forced.
Throwing of things, scoldings, etc.
What I hope for is improvement,
not the results of the competition, really.

And to my dearest weeliat,
we know you want to improve,
and we know you are dying to improve.
I'm glad I see improvement from you.
Yes! YOU ARE WORST AMONG US NOW!
Doesn't mean you will be forever worst darling.
I want you to overtake everybody in hequan!
Be better than John! Be better than our seniors!
I do sincerely hope you'll be strong.
and i know you will honey.
Please take this as an motivation.

2009-06-14T18:14:00.001-07:00

Fantasize for tragedy!

2009-06-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

In a world of hate, ruled by gods twisted whim
A world of death, to suck us in
We cant ignore, what must surely be
The death of life, of you and me

2009-06-12T09:02:00.000-07:00

No one ever said that life was fair and it should be
So knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
Don't expect me to be happy for you
And don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity.. I hate your pity!

Aweshum lyrics uh?

2009-06-12T01:24:00.001-07:00

I was right...
damn right..

2009-06-07T04:11:00.000-07:00

Comon' life! Quit Joking!

Tentatively things are like this. I don't know if things will add or minus. My ohsoprecious holidays..
Gone were days of sitting around doing nothing...
fuck my social life i need to sit around do nothing!

July - Lion dance competition.
December - Singapore Dragon dance competition *AGAIN WTFZOMGBBQ
January - Malaysia Dragon dance competition

Hequan Buck up! Lets grab nothing but the Bigbig cup this time! We need the bigbig cup because we can tar using the cup! So get the damn cup this time muahahaha ;p

2009-06-06T17:55:00.001-07:00

i force this hate into my heart
...'cause its my only friend..

You said you understand, and I thought you did.
but you know shit.
...or were you just another liar to begin with?
eitherwise its fine.

It was my heart
it was my life
it was my start
it was your knife..

2009-06-04T13:14:00.000-07:00

Why are the things I have to say,
is often what people are afraid to hear?

2009-06-03T13:21:00.001-07:00

I'm tired ,
of your fantasy.
I don't care,
what he did today..

2009-05-29T02:48:00.000-07:00

Got fourth, now what?
Move on! Get first!
'When you're left with nothing,
you've nothing left to lose'

2009-05-21T09:05:00.000-07:00

He was there constantly,

with affection, care and concern.

She was there constantly,

with neglect, selfishness and intoxication.

Now she's there constantly,

with affection, care and concern.

Now he's there constantly,

with neglect, selfishness and intoxication...

Beauty in karma..

oh karma..

2009-05-20T16:00:00.001-07:00

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.."

2009-05-20T11:20:00.000-07:00

My insides scream so loud,
they keep watching, watching me drown.

2009-05-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

I feel a sudden attack of stress.
My future, my life.

You'll ask me if everything is gonna be okay.
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK?
You'll ask me to look into the future.
YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE IN IT!
You'll ask me to think of something that is happy.
BUT NOW THAT SOMETHING MAKES ME SAD!
You'll ask me to look at the bright side.
THERE NEVER WAS A BRIGHT SIDE ITS BLOCKED BY MY PAIN!

i'm just sorry most of the time i keep everything to myself, sweety.
I don't want you to see all the pain and agony built up in me.
Just let me be selfish in my own pain alright?
You know I love you, and you know its been some time.
But it's hard for me to pass some nights.
Some nights I lay on my bed for 2 hours thinking of who I gonna' be.
You'll tell me "the future is not ours to see"
Yeah but it's really worrying.
You know I wanted nothing but the best for you
You know I gave everything I could to you
You know it better than I do.
It's stressful!
I should've believed in -
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable..."

I didn't want to make another wrong decision in life again,
so please, don't ask me to show you my girlfriend.
Because you're the one I need.
It hurts me behind the smile when you always asked me this.
Sorry recently I'm feeling alot of things.
Past haunts, present hurts, future bleaks.
just.. go fuck yourself.

2009-05-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

How long more can I wait?
How long more can I waste?
Oh, how long..

2009-05-02T02:12:00.001-07:00

Let this feeling die..

2009-04-23T13:54:00.000-07:00

Putting heart and soul into my dragon practices after all the blood, sweat and tears..
Hope to rip something out of it.

2009-04-14T12:18:00.000-07:00

Babygirl, i love you soo.

2009-04-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

I like staring into your eyes darling.
It makes me feel everythings worth it.

2009-04-07T22:35:00.000-07:00

Why am I waiting?
Can I wait forever?
Wait forever and then still be your friend?
It just doesn't make sense.
It don't make sense.
I'm sick of waiting,
but is there something else I could do?
Nothing.

2009-04-05T22:47:00.001-07:00

Darling - Eyes Set To Kill

2009-04-05T03:32:00.000-07:00

Struggling at the thought to give up or not to give up.
A side of me tells me to "move on" ,
another side debates "Carry on".
Part of me says "Byebye I wouldn't be there for you anymore",
other part argued "I want to see you through your downs"
Ahh life is just irony la.
What do you do when you dont want to live and dont want to die either?

2009-04-04T16:16:00.001-07:00

These few days I wouldn't be switching on my phone,
nor will i be going out unneccesarily.
I'll still attend to my commitments.
I just need a time on my own,
to sort out my feelings,
to think of my future,
and then work things out.

2009-04-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

I just have to know of a direction to move on.
To carry on with you,
or forgo you and seek new changes?
There's bound to be a way,
like how we worked on what you conceived as improbable before, right?

Is this bitterness coming from selfish foolishness?
Is it my ungenerous desire to own?
Its time to embark on a vision,
and then work hard for, my decision.
A thousand miles journey starts with nothing but a step.

2009-04-02T18:24:00.000-07:00

Grab my hand, show me that you can.
Show your smile again, lets not just be friends.

2009-03-31T11:00:00.001-07:00

to imagine and then work for,
what had seemed impossible before.

2009-03-30T11:19:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-03-28T15:05:00.000-07:00

When her heart longed for another his,
another feeling of his died.
Remorse perished? Guilt depart? Love ceased to exist?
These didn't end.
Hope's demise devastated him,
as he learnt to rise through adversity.
He put himself together,
and here he is, him without desire.
He lost wish,
what's next?

2009-03-22T13:43:00.001-07:00

Take my hand, and believe in hope again.

2009-03-22T13:23:00.001-07:00

why do I feel like theres a hole deep in my chest right in my heart?

2009-03-18T22:07:00.001-07:00

It hurts me.
It hurts.

2009-03-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

These are a few promises I will keep,
for someone who is everything.
Since the day you walked in my life,
is the day I start feeling alive.
I don't like the way you look down on yourself,
saying you just can't make it.
Where has all your confidence gone to,
the confidence you taught me?

2009-03-12T13:50:00.001-07:00

Beauty Through Broken Glass - Eyes Set To Kill

2009-03-11T14:33:00.000-07:00

I feel that my tears alone,
could fill our dividing ocean.
I feel I could never be good enough for her,
but my heart refuses to stray.

& I just want you to be happy.
with me, or without me.
I just want you to be happy.
Your smile is my priorty.

2009-03-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

I am so disappointed.
So disappointed.
I just hope everyone can differentiate between personal and organisational.

2009-03-09T11:54:00.000-07:00

"If a man will make a purchase of a chance he must abide by the consequences."
- Richard Richards'.

2009-03-08T11:16:00.000-07:00

I miss you when I'm drinking.
I miss you when I'm talking bullshit.
I miss you.
I really do.

**

i hate to know that you're sad.
i HATE to know.

2009-03-06T13:20:00.001-08:00

"So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
thats something only love can do"

2009-03-05T10:32:00.000-08:00

I'm glad you're so matured at this stage lil girl,
and I'm happy that you don't mix personal life & lion dance!
'til now I've done nothing for you to let you think I'm a nice guy,
and I'm entirely fucked up on the inside.
And yes, I totally agree with you,
when time comes, we'll know more of each other.
Maybe 'til then , we'll never know.
But hey, I still want to be your friend alright?
I want to be your best friend that you can pour everything onto me.
I want to be your best friend whenever you need me.
And please , don't hold back.

2009-03-04T09:56:00.000-08:00

Of all the words the little girl said to me,
I couldn't find myself trusting any.
I'm tired of your lies,
and all of your poses.
sorry little girl.

-------------------------------------------

Can I still soothe your tears,
like how I did before?
Can I still sit there,
hoping you'll brutally wake up?
Can I still believe in hope,
like how hope died on me?

2009-03-02T09:30:00.000-08:00

I'm glad I picked up my courage,
just so you know.
Now I risk losing you as a friend.
Damn. Im feeling a lot of things.

"Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special."

"Time waits for no one"

"You don't know what you have until it's gone.."

Everything beneath the lies,
my deep, dark secrets I tried to hide.
I'm sorry I felt this,
I'm sorry that I'm me.
I'm sorry I told you,
I'm sorry I love you.
All the pain I've ever felt,
the times you weren't there to help.
Yet I'm haunted by the memories,
of what was, we'll never be.

2009-03-01T08:42:00.000-08:00

With every fibre in my body,
i love you.

2009-02-27T22:23:00.001-08:00

2009-02-22T07:10:00.000-08:00

If only you knew how much pain you caused,
if only you knew that I love you,
if only you knew that it was all because of you.

2009-02-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

Until today, I never understood how hard it was to lose something you never had.
'It's over man, let her go.'
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never found the courage to let the person know how you feel.

2009-02-18T08:54:00.000-08:00

Take my fucking hand,
and never be afraid again.

2009-02-16T10:27:00.000-08:00

im considering a hair like this.

2009-02-10T08:36:00.000-08:00

Life is such an irony,
you're the reason im living for and the reason i wanna start dying.

2009-02-06T12:16:00.000-08:00

A real decision is measured by the fact that you've taken a new action. If there's no action, you haven't truly decided. - Anthony Robbins

i've made my decision.
I shall just seek comfort in myself,
sitting here silently,
seeing you smile, happily.
it's all i can wish for.
Because i could give you everything,
without expecting any single thing.

2009-02-06T00:30:00.000-08:00

This valentine I'll send you two roses.
One for the woman I love, and one for my best friend.

2009-02-05T03:46:00.000-08:00

Girl, i've got all the things in the world to tell you.
But I just can't find my balls to do so.
Sorry I love you.

2009-02-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

If life was a bed of roses,
then why do roses have thorns?

2009-01-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

when the pain forsakes me,
i know you'll be there tonight.

2009-01-24T03:32:00.000-08:00

Disappointment meets dismay.
one of the surest hindrance is the centring of attention upon themselves.

2009-01-22T01:04:00.000-08:00

to do list

Don't eat Bakkwa
Don't eat chinese new year delicacies
Stick to 200 bucks a month, not a day.
Don't go to school until school reopens
Just slack at home whenever possible
Try my best to obey the above
last but not least, finish my new year delicacies so I can't eat them tomorrow *grins.

2009-01-20T08:16:00.000-08:00

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect,
every action in this world will bear a consequent.
If you wade around forever you will surely drown,
I see what's going down.
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

So darn applicable to my situation now.
Thanks for evoking all the pain and suffering in me TRJA!

2009-01-19T02:59:00.000-08:00

if life is just a joke,
than why aren't we laughing?

2009-01-17T10:54:00.000-08:00

my life is in such a dillema. Now i'm trying not to make myself regret in the future. But either way i'm losing. Either way i'm losing something very important to me. Sometimes in life, you think you can take all this pain but when the pain strikes, you can't handle it. Will you be here for me, like how i'm there for you?
I cherish every single person around me. Because love , for a friend or girl, is a funny thing. It'll make or break you. I haven't had it but i think i just lost it. But for me i'll not give up. I'll continue to seek this love.
Nobody knows the pain i'm going through. Especially you! I hate all this shit that revolves around me!

2009-01-14T18:52:00.000-08:00

These few days I'm devouring all the bakkwas i have at home.
Fatality!
No exercise and all the junk food. Fuck!
It's the end of the world for me.
Well not really is but hey..
Bakkwas is really a seduction.

2009-01-08T20:54:00.000-08:00

i feel lousy
i feel like shit
i know you'll be there for me,
like how i'm here for you,
right?
I hate to tell you everythings thats sad.
I love to tell you everythings thats happy.
I wanted to make you believe in joy.
But how am I gonna' teach another something the I don't know?

2009-01-07T21:25:00.000-08:00

if i said i find sheer contentment spending 3hrs in lot1 with my family...
is that too hilarious?
Come to think about it, the last time I went there with them was probably 10.
Or maybe 11. Hey wait, was it 9?
Bahhzxzx

2009-01-07T13:36:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 4am this morning,
told myself to study for communication UT.
in the end i was surfing myspace and came across this band
Death in December.
Damn nice music.
Fucking awesome hair.
Sweeeets.
and i realised me saying to myself,
Ahhh studying for ut damn sure is hard.

2009-01-04T11:09:00.000-08:00

I look'd for the sun,
but its raining today.
It's never gonna' be the same. :(

2009-01-02T17:32:00.000-08:00

Don't doubt my words, beloved.
Each and every one of them is in sincerity.
Sometimes I just don't want to tell you everything,
because everything is shit.
It's all shitt.....
Probe further, I'll answer (:
Hestitation is inevitable.